Floating in the Void
I am feeling a void. Yes, I have felt it before, quite unusual but familiar. I experienced a bunch every passing day, each one being different from the other. Some made me tired and others, just miserable. Few were devastating and even blithesome, but not many have given me this quietness.
Yes, quiet! Often referred to as the existence of peace, most of us seek for and I too relate to it a lot. But this time, the void has infested me with quietness and this one is rare. If I may give you an overlook and if you allow yourself to look over following words, maybe you’ll understand what I have talked about all this time.
Let’s begin with me taking you into my imagination and see yourself in a large body of water. Anywhere and everywhere you move your eyes, you can see only water, feel only water. Transient and floating around. You, as a natural human virtue, are trying to stay above it, going with its flow, floating along and somehow reach somewhere. You have been exerting as good as possible and striving really hard, using all the possible strength you could.
OH!!! And that sudden moment.
Your breath is engulfed beneath its surface. You are splashing with all your force, gasping to breathe, thrashing and struggling to pull over your body. You know it has dragged you in — and with that, it is all becoming really calm, the struggle is being paralyzed by something. As if it’s taking you in, with it. While you again give an attempt and try to scream. Soon, realizing it ain’t working, all the efforts are in vain, none of it could save you.
You are helpless, and you are on your own.
Everything else was happening swiftly, but you were getting merged inside really slow. You are experiencing the truth that lies ahead of life. You already have realized it’s getting over for you, that you are not going to have a soul, not anymore, as it has approached its end. You are a body — Valueless. Your body is worth nothing… without any feelings, emotions or senses. And it won’t take much to even say “You were a body”.
Didn’t it take like a fraction of seconds to make you realize you are done? While moments ago, you were so not ready to even think of approaching death. Death is uncertain. While all you kept worrying about was the uncertainty in life. I guess the nearly dying feeling was quite quiet.
What’s next? After knowing that you are full-fledged fleshy alive being?
It’s the same feeling when after each failure we get an opportunity to work upon, to try harder, to push ourselves not for more, but for better and then assure to use all of it with our full potential.
As I float in this void of quietness, I find a serene clarity wash over me. Instead of struggling against the currents of uncertainty, I embrace the beauty of impermanence. Each setback becomes a stepping stone, each moment a chance for renewal.
